i hate this shit. not knowing. being so far away. i cant help it. havent had the best luck with this stuff. so dont blame me my mind jumps straight to the worst over small shit that prob dosent mean anything. so i will drink my jhonny walker and zone out to maroon 5 and try not to think at all. if there was a thing i could put in my head to stop it from thinking i would. i just want to shut off.